Saudade

This day is one that will never have a chance at life again as a new day is born. It lived its final minutes knowing that it will dissipate at the darkest hour of the night, never to return again. However, like a lost loved one, its soul will pervade through the cracks of its lifeless body and exist in the chambers of your memory, forever leaving its physical body to rest.

A blissful memory has been formed on this very day. It’s a memory destined to rule your psychology until your dying day; one that can be retrieved from a collection of other memories that have poisoned your mind. It’s a memory that will exist as a reminder for a time of euphoria, yet the feeling cannot be relived. This is a feeling that can only be retrieved, yet this feeling is just an imitation. It will never replace the real thing.

The person you loved most became a blissful memory on that very day. Their warming presence sent waves of feeling through your spine, eventually making its way into your heart to capture the moment. This feeling would last beyond the day of its initial occurrence. Every kiss thereafter completed the significance of that very day.

The person you loved most was a blissful memory on that very day until they became a poison: a poison that has occupied your mind with a memory that will never subside. The poison has manipulated your thinking and the memory will reappear time and time again. They’re a monster, yet the memory reminds you of a time when they weren’t.

You long to relive that moment. It’s never coming back.